Love...Loud and Clear

I am a very big fan of Alaine I listened to this song called LOve..Loud and clear" and it really moved me because I can releate to this song on all different levels so I posted the Lyrics and the video that you can hear how it sound.


You don't have to say it
I know how you feel
You don't need to speak a word to reveal
When you love this way it's
Easy to love what you need (when you need)

So baby...
Close the door
Turn the lights off hold me like you never did before
Closer than we've ever been
With words unspoken
I cry out to you and you answer me
Silently...

In the silence of the night
Your heartbeat speaks to mine
In the silence of the night
I hear... love loud and clear

When you touch you tell me
You'll never let go
With my eyes I beg you to take full control
Baby in this moment
I understand you without a sound
Without a doubt

So baby...
Close the door
Turn the lights off hold me like you never did before
Closer than we've ever been
With words unspoken
I cry out to you and you answer me
Silently...

In the silence of the night
Your heartbeat speaks to mine
In the silence of the night
I hear... love loud and clear

Touch me, feel me, quietly
Don't speak
Just love me now baby
Now let's be silent
Time to give and take love
Let's make loooove

In the silence of the night
Your heartbeat speaks to mine
In the silence of the night
I hear... love loud and clear

In the silence of the night
Your heartbeat speaks to mine
In the silence of the night
I hear... love loud and clear

Closer to my Dreams

I am no going to talk much on this blog I will just let thissong speak for it self



Closer to my dreams
It's coming over me

I'm gettin' higher
Closer to my dreams
I'm getting higher and higher
Feel it in my sleep

Some times it feels like I'll never go pass here
Some times it feels like I'm stuck forever and ever

But, I'm going higher
Closer to my dreams
I'm goin' higher and higher
I can almost reach

Some times you just have to let it go (Let it go, let it go)
Leaving all my fears to burn down
Push them all away so I can move on
Closer to my dreams
Feel it all over my being
Close your eyes and see what you believe

I'm happy as long as we're apart
Then I'm moving on to my dreams

I'll be moving higher (Moving higher)
Closer to my dreams
And higher and higher, higher
Feel it in my being (I can feel it flow around me)
I know that I could not go alone (No, no)

I'm moving higher (Higher), oh...
I'm going higher and higher and higher (Higher and
Higher)
Closer to my dreams (Higher and higher, oh...oh...)
I'm moving upward and onward and beyond all I can see
(Stretching out my arms so I can reach)

Feels so close it's like i can just reach
I can feel my dreams (Closer to my dreams)
I'm moving closer to my dreams
I'm moving (Higher and higher) higher and higher
(Higher and higher)
Moving higher, oh...

Some times it feels like you never gon'change (Never gon'change)
But you never choose to walk away

Just want to be Left alone

As i fell asleep all i felt was tears running down my cheeks.I just feel hurt I want to be left alone seriously. I want to be loved how I love. Is it wrong for someone to want to feel that feelings. I want to have a child that I can give my child the love i give people.I cant take it anymore I really cant. I want to have a hug be shown some love and affection. I want to be treated better because i deserve better. I know at times I ask for alot but this confuse smile isnt working anymore. I can only use up to a certain about of times and now it ran out i dont have it anymore to use it. I feel like a zombie right now and I notice i feel this way anytime i feel betrayed it seems like everything that bothers me all trigger me at once. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.I have been hurt to the max that my heart doesnt allow me to go insane anymore but i still have emotions.

Circle

"They say if you love somethin let it go and if it comes back then thats how you know"


This is where I am in my current life. I am changing day in and out. I love that song "Circle" by marques houston because it speaks the thruth. I felt I have put in alot action wise dont get me wrong i am lacking on my verbal side, but dont action speak louder than words. He have also but I am greedy I need more and if I cant get more I'm sorry thats it.So now at this point in my life I am letting go and see if it is really meant to be. See how "important" I am in his life.I am so serious as of today there will be no form of communication on my behalf.


Signing out
Macintash

Love VS Lust

What is love? One may define love as "Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection and attachment." then makes me think What is Lust? Lust is an inordinate craving for sexual intercourse often to the point of assuming a self-indulgent, and sometimes violent character.



Now in society many people confuse the word Love with Lust. With all honesty can you really be in Love with someone you never met? Is that even possible? Can you fall for someone you never had even a conversation with is that Love or is it Lust? I understand if you may like someone,but Love is a strong word that is used loosely does it even have a meaning anymore?*everyone think about those question*


Now to me Love is when you really have strong feelings for an individual.Love makes you blind at times when there is no fault in the individuals behavior. He or she may be caught cheating but you are so blind you say it was there friend.*i am never that blind now lol*. Love makes you do alot of crazy things you would never imagine doing in your life.Love makes you think everything is perfect and you will accept an individual flaws and all.Love sometimes hurt because you give your all but at times you dont get it back.When your in love with someone you think they are your everything but dont make them your everything if they dont even show interest.I notice every song made now is about Love like that is the only topic in life.I love alicia keys song "the thing about love" *
Love
Love will come find you
Just to remind you
Of who you are

Oh love
It will forsake you
Threaten to break you
Take what you got

Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
Sure it could hurt you baby
But give it a little try
See that's the thing about love* this song is the thruth.


Now I will move on to Lust. This is about sexual desire. Many may say Omg I love him but how can you love someone you dont know. They meant to say I Lust him. Then other have sex with a guy or girl they say I Love HIm. Like are you really in love? or you lust the pussy are dick? I am being real in this blog cause Love and lust is very big in peoples life are two different things. One deals with actuaally emotions and attachment and other one is based mostly on sexual desires.



With all this being said you tell me or you in Love or in Lust?

Changes

Changes can be good or bad.I notice as I get older I get more bolder and wiser. There is nothing wrong with Change;sometimes in your life. I would say I look at certain things differently. I have many people that have come and go within my life. Many changes in life often strenghten me. I learn that nothing is permanent in my life just as fast I gain a new friend i also loose one etc. To me it doesn't really matter because there are a few people in my life that means the world to me*you know who you guys are*. I am not the most innocent person in life but I do have Good intent. I personally feel I change for the better. I am not the same chick that anyone can walk over and we still have the same relationship. Also I notice I am not the average girl.When saying that i don't mean i am better than anyone .I am saying that because I am a very strong head individual although at times i do act weak. The reason is because i am a very emotional person. Sometimes i wish my heart was built with iron and steel but it is not. Also i learn if you have good friends hold on to them because Men often come and go ,but a good friend will be there forever. there are times in your life when you know you must change for the better.Like right now i at a point of my life where I am content just a few more classes left then finish with school. I have a lovely family and friends that help me in my crazy times. A guy friend who is a sweetheart but need to change alot maybe when he is about 60 idk lol. With all of this said I thank my mother because she have taught me alot. I am aware of all the games in life ,but at times i still want to test them out ;even though I know the possible outcomes. Now at this crucial time in my life I learn to start doing things that makes me happy. I also change and the only person I try and impress at the end of the day is Me Myself and I. I can't really do things to make people like or love me that is something you do by yourself.One thing I would never change is my friendliness and social skills that is my best qualities. Throughout all these changes I had in life i am still Natasha Annmarie Rubie the chick people Love,adore and Respect.


signing out
Macintash

Missing You

Like right now i am feeling it. I miss my baby being with him for four days striaght just felt so good. I dont usually get to see him often. He lives in florida then he is always on the road so anytime i get to see him i really appreciate it even though i act up sometimes. This time was good though we ended on real good terms.I went home content.I feel like a part of me is missing right now. He is a very big part in my heart.So when he is gone my heart has a hole in it but i am not worried because it will be patch up soon. *sad face*