Me and MY Goddaughter/Niece

yesterday I had a good day with my wife and my God Daughter/Niece it was a real good day. She is too cute man I love kids and was real fun seeing her and playing with her. I even had her saying something my friend always say Iggy which i found real cute. Watching her made me think about kids even more like my whole mood yesterday was extremely happy. I notice even more my joy for kids and how much i love kids I was excited the whole day and night man.I also sat and talked with the wife about my husband and some shit I was doing under the influence of Alcohol. Everyone listen to me say NO to alcohol OK igggyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

You never find

I love this song this song is real deep by Jah cure he is a very talented reggae artist. He is saying that basically he goes hard when he loves. There is no one in the lifetime that can love this person like he can.I heard this song and i fell in love with it because i feel like that sometimes. I can go on and on about this topic but i will leave it with someting light and touch on this topic in a latwer post you feel me. Aww man this song is beautiful *sings "you'll never find no one in this lifetime to love you like i do". I want you guys to listen to the words of this song it is deep man a real big tuneeeeeeee.


*signing out*
Macintash

Mother and Child

Mother and child is just figurative speech to me ok guys don't think much of the picture. I call me and my friend relationship as a mother and child. The reason I say that is because I spoil him and he can have whatever he want without hesitation. This is just like a mother to her child. Mothers are always loving to their child and always give them what they want because they don't want their child to be upset. It is very hard sometimes for the mother to use the word "NO". Then their is tough love which hurts alot. When you start showing tough love it hurts the mother more than the child , but it also lets the child understand that they cant always get what they want.


short poem

"I hope you remember the day we first met
It was like heaven on the sun
You made me feel very sweet
You made my heart go faster than a shotgun
You did all those things for me
And now its time to repay
To show you love in every way
On this Special Day
I wanna show you that I know how to love
So you don’t misunderstand
That only I can make you feel
Better than any man
Its my turn to make you laugh and think of words to say
But its only for this one Special Day! "


"signing out"
Macintash

WHY?

Why would someone get a Tattoo like that saying "#1 DICK SUCKER"? I found this tat very amusing so i sent it to my boyfriend number 2 who showed it to My husband and everyone.I asked them if they liked my new tattoo? Even my husband wanted to speak to me for this obsene tattoo. The BfN2 was just laughing and said it was "its cool" and was being real slack about it. He also stated i would have to wear a turtle neck 365 24/7. The rest just wonder what will my mother say. They were going in too much so i had to call them and let them know that this was not my tattoo. Man the things I do in life never seem to amaze me but anywways back to the tattoo. Like ok if you want to get a tattoo that represents your status nothing wrong with it but why get a tattoo that is so vulgar on your chest. That shows she donesnt have any moral or ambiition. Hopefully she doesnt wear any V necks or low cut tops.


*signing out*
Macintash

Feeling Like MJ

Comfortable

When you hear of Comfortable what do you think of? Well I think of being satisfy, know your place dont have to go so hard. Sometimes I have to realize I 24 years old and not a child so the shit I do is more mature than some individuals you feel me. Like let me be real and honest with myself how long i knew these negros? How long i been chillin with them? and not on who got the most pictures level it was on some chillin shit. Ok enough about me lets get back to the word comfortable. I feel when you are comfortable about a situation or in general you dont have to go so hard for someones approval. I am a person if i do it that comes from my heart not to see what people are going to say smh. If you felt you had anything you can handle stuff differently than acting as a child and a fien.


*singing out*
Macintash

Twitter Withdrawls

Aww man so i was on a twitter break for about 5 days. So today i started back and guess what i got so damn Happy. Now as my friends or on twitter tweeting away on I am stuck for a hour and i cant even tweet goodbye. Lmfao and now my sister is in here bragging because she can still tweet and here I am *scracthes fingers like a crackhead* with no way of tweeting. I will confess I am a Tweeaddict *cries*


*Signing out*

Beautiful Monday

Today was a Beautiful day so far very hot though. I woke up went to the physical therapist for my ankle.Then I came home and blast some music and did my favorite thing in the world dancing. Man I love to dance videos will be posted later.I am just relaxing now and taking each day one step at a time.

*Signing out*
Macintash

No More Acohol

I never was a drinker i would take a sip here and there maybe at certain Occasions because i hate the taste of alcohol. I am serious now i dont want to drink any more. When you drink most of the times you dont remember anything that happens and I dont want to be at a point like that.I was really drunk two times in my life. The first time I was drunk but i had some form of judgment and then the second time i dont really remeber much. Thats why i dont want to drink. I was speaking with my wife and she was telling me some of the stuff i was saying man she said i was talking mad Reckless serving people and I dont want to do things like that.I want to be fully aware of my surrondings and actions so for now on no more liquor for me like the commerical said "Not me not now" .

*signing out*
Macintash


Perfect song is "I dont remeber" By Ciara i love this song it is so true man

Give Thanks

Today is the lords day. I did not go to church but the lord knows that i love him.I call this blog give thanks ,because many people complain about bad things that happen to them. You need to stop and give thanks to the lord for being alive. The littlest things we take for granted is the biggest things for some people. Many things that happen in life are often signs the lord is trying to show you and that's when you step up and say if you want to follow through or continue living your life in a struggle. I am thankful for family and friends that are very caring and loving; not many people can say that. Like there is nothing wrong with wanting bigger and better things but there is a problem with being greedy in life.I know sometimes you feel you are in the world by your self. How is it possible yo have so many family and friends and still feel your in the world alone? I know there are times when certain things happen and you may question if there is a lord;before Questioning that you should Give thanks for the good and the bad because in life they both make you a better person.

*signing out*
Macintash


A Beautiful song by an attractive gospel singer Smokie Norful "I need you now"

Me and my Baby Jayden

I love this boy heheheheheheh

Black and White

Sometimes your world is Black and White and lack colors

Betrayed

Have you ever been Betrayed? like I dont know why I make it bother me so much because I have been betrayed so much in Life I should be used to it. It hurts me because I try and be nice and give to people but they take all you have and are not appreciative of what you do. I keep saying i am gonna change but to be honest i cant a pastor once told me i have a very good heart one of many. She told me i will go to heaven with a heart of Humanity. That is real true because I am a loving and caring individual. I am a person if I have my last dollar I would give it to someone that they can better themself no matter what my circumstances is. I am a person who bend over backwards for people and a common thank you or atleast show your appreciate it will mean the world to me. Like I notice people take my kindness for weakness i am learning how to cope with things like this. I feel often used many people use me for what i have and once they drain me out they move on stuff like that hurts and when I use my "Confused Smile". Many people sometimes are afraid to say when they are hurt or show emotions but I am a very emotional person I show my feelings sometimes.


*signing out*
Macintash

Best Friend/Girlfriend

Well today i spoke with the best friend at first my feelings was betrayed but then it turned into Happiness, and no she did not betray me.Like i really enjoy having her as a best friend/Girlfriend because she is always there for me not one day passes by and she doesn't hit me up. That is something most people don't understand and I love her for that and i will continue to love her for that. Like currently I was on a break from communication and everything from all social sites and people but when she saw that she went out her way and asked if it included her and I told her no i would never block her out because she is always persist ant and willing.Then i saw a video of someone i loved Dearly and spoke with someone as well and my face lit up and this smile was genuine it wasn't a "Confused smile". This was actually a smile of happiness. I also love my little cuz emi she is a sweetheart and also always there for me to talk to as well as i am there for her.


*signing out*
Macintash

Michael Jackson

I really like this interview with him and Operah





Like what do you think of when you hear Michael Jackson? Thats a good question.The documentary above basically did his whole life in about 45 minutes. It covered everything from his early childhood sucesss , false accusations,Later year and to his death. Michael Jackson to me was a very dominat figure in American popular music and culture.He was givng, sincere, willing,too many things I can go on and on about him. Many people often looked up to Michael and to me he deserve it. He did so much for the world and the society that sometimes go by not notice. Now at this time of his death the most you hear about him on the tabloids is basically his child molestation cases which were all false. This shows you in the world that the bad always out weighed the goods.I also find it true that is how society is in general you can give and do many good things but once you do something wrong it is like your life is destroyed. I really dont know man this is how society is and we cant change it because we are accostumed to all these things.I notice something about me i have similar characteristics of Michael Jackson I know i am far form the level he is but i know if i had the money i would be doing all those things he do because i feel it is better to give than recieve. With all this said even if things he did went un notice to the world I Know God saw everything he did and had a big smile on his face.

RIP Michael Jackson you may be gone in body but your spirit and life will continue to live on no one will every forget about you.

*Signing out*
Macintash

Confused Smile

You ever wonder what a confuse smile is ? well I have a confused smile. The way I smile it shows as if i am care free and happy but deep down inside I am in pain and hurt.Do you have a confused smile? I am a person that smiles all the time no matter what the circumstances may be but sometimes I am hurt and dont really know how to express it but smile. I know that seems very wierd but everyone has different ways of expressing how they feel. I try and "live my life to fullest" as many may say but with all honesty i still have a barrier a block that doesnt make me live as full as I want to. I will not complain cause at the end of all this i am still alive and love the lord with all my heart.


*signing out*
Macintash


leaving you with this video a Bestfriend of mines put me onto this song
"I Trust you"

What Is Love?

Check This Video out "The Thing about Love"




It is funny because many people use that word loosely. Like females or males waits for their better half to say the word. Many people arent good with using words to express how they feel they use actions.When it comes to actions i feel sometimes it is even better because the person is showing you. Like the saying "I can show you better than i can tell you". Like to me love is a good thing it has it ups and downs I will tell you that. Like when you are in Love you will go above and beyond for a person. You will do things you would never imagine or thing you would do just to make that individual happy. Thats when you stop and think with all these things or you happy as well. Like you can keep giving and giving and giving but you will want to see something back in return.Some of the bad things about being in love is that you are blind. There is nothing the person can say or do will make you stop from loving them. The person never have flaws. Many times you lower your standards and expectactions because you love this person so much but make sure it is worth it. Like will i say i am in LOVE yes i would say that is it real deep yup are some of these thing i stated refers to me ofcourse it does.I am just sitting and writing and telling you my take on LOVE you can agree or disagree cause everyone is entitled to there own opinion but this is mines

*signing out*
Macintash

Mixed Feelings

Are there times when you feel down but happy at the same time? well i call it mixed feelings like i am at a point in my life where i am feeling that way. It like you want something you sorta have it but it isnt so good for you. Like sometimes i feel my world is black and white no form of color. For the past couple of days i just been feeling real down i dont really know why i am so down . I just want to be left alone i dont feel like commnicating with my direct family. I just want to be in my room with my door lock. I dont even feel like going outside and seeing sunlight to be honest.