Changes

Changes can be good or bad.I notice as I get older I get more bolder and wiser. There is nothing wrong with Change;sometimes in your life. I would say I look at certain things differently. I have many people that have come and go within my life. Many changes in life often strenghten me. I learn that nothing is permanent in my life just as fast I gain a new friend i also loose one etc. To me it doesn't really matter because there are a few people in my life that means the world to me*you know who you guys are*. I am not the most innocent person in life but I do have Good intent. I personally feel I change for the better. I am not the same chick that anyone can walk over and we still have the same relationship. Also I notice I am not the average girl.When saying that i don't mean i am better than anyone .I am saying that because I am a very strong head individual although at times i do act weak. The reason is because i am a very emotional person. Sometimes i wish my heart was built with iron and steel but it is not. Also i learn if you have good friends hold on to them because Men often come and go ,but a good friend will be there forever. there are times in your life when you know you must change for the better.Like right now i at a point of my life where I am content just a few more classes left then finish with school. I have a lovely family and friends that help me in my crazy times. A guy friend who is a sweetheart but need to change alot maybe when he is about 60 idk lol. With all of this said I thank my mother because she have taught me alot. I am aware of all the games in life ,but at times i still want to test them out ;even though I know the possible outcomes. Now at this crucial time in my life I learn to start doing things that makes me happy. I also change and the only person I try and impress at the end of the day is Me Myself and I. I can't really do things to make people like or love me that is something you do by yourself.One thing I would never change is my friendliness and social skills that is my best qualities. Throughout all these changes I had in life i am still Natasha Annmarie Rubie the chick people Love,adore and Respect.


signing out
Macintash

Missing You

Like right now i am feeling it. I miss my baby being with him for four days striaght just felt so good. I dont usually get to see him often. He lives in florida then he is always on the road so anytime i get to see him i really appreciate it even though i act up sometimes. This time was good though we ended on real good terms.I went home content.I feel like a part of me is missing right now. He is a very big part in my heart.So when he is gone my heart has a hole in it but i am not worried because it will be patch up soon. *sad face*

Can you Love more Than one person?

That is a Good?I really sat down and really thought about that. I am Gemini and I will admit we have a very loving heart. I am speaking from experience.Like can I Love him and also love someone else with all honesty yes I can.The other day when someone did hit me up my heart did drop for a second.So if that is possible with me why cant it be possible with anyone else? I understand each individual is different. I love my wife dearly and i love my Girlfriend. Some opinions of one weigh more than the other thats why it may hurt sometimes. Like when you Love someone you cant really help it. Love isnt someting that is taught.Lets say you can Love different charateristics about a person that draw you to love them. Like my wife may say she dont Love no one but i beg to differ. If she didnt Love that individual she would not be willing to compromise trust and believe. I give her props though because she is made with iron and steel lol she is not as emotional as me. In the end you live and you learn. I feel if you are talking are messing with someone like that you just need to give them like half your heart are maybe 1/4 or maybe 1/8. You should never Give your all when you are not recieving there all.Another Good question But what if the person think they are giving there all and the best they can do because people stick around through the stuff they do? ALways rememberto Love and live life many people are dying from foolishness and sickness so if it isnt a life or death situation you will be aight.


signing out
Macintash

Moving On ?

What does Moving On mean to you? Well to me Moving on means to move forward and dont look back. I will admit I have not fully moved on ,but I have made alot of progress with my move forward. It is not easy to fully move on when your surroundings talk about the person you are tryna move away from. I have revamped alot of stuff in my life dealing with him. For instance I will be real good doing something productive then i get a text or email that has something to do with him. When things like that occur he then is on my mind for those few seconds.Another reason it is kinda hard for me fully to move on is because I am the one wanting to move on it is not a two way thing. Are let me rephase it he never told me that we should stop talking.Like the other day I was minding my business saw some post of twitter from people who still associtate with him so i decided to watch him live for a a little bit. I turn up the volume and they were playing a few songs which i catched off the album. Then i stayed a little bit and as i was about to turn off the broadcast a song "Computer Love" comes on and then he goes *Man Macintash has this song right here*smiles* SHout out to Tasha*. At that point I started crying i was crying cause i dont love him like I used to like whitney sang in "why does it hurt so bad" * I keep crying when i dont love you*. It was nice of him like he could of went on with they live show and listen to songs didnt have to specify who the song was for or whatever the case was. So November 17th go out and support me jk.

Love Always
Macintash* like i give it to him this name was very creative*